Yelling and screaming

I know what your going through
I've been there before
I'm not just one of the others
just trying to make u feel better

the only reason i started cutting
is because my mom didn't care
she put all her attention onto my brother
that to ask her i didn't dare

forever inside was i crying
cause the yelling just wouldn't stop
every little thing i did
came with a screaming drop

i cried almost every night
and prayed she would be dead
she hurt my soul
and was i forever changed

i crossed my fingers
and hoped today would be the day
that my mother got in a car accident
but i only prayed

it seemed like forever
that i was invisible human being
not having any care and love
forever i was scarred

i used to be so cute
when i was one or two
i was spoiled rotten
but then he came through

even when i was crying
she just yelled at me more
like i was a Sargent
in a foreign war

often was i called fat
even though I'm not
so i became bulimic
and just let my teeth rot

then i stopped eating completely
to make her notice me
yet she only yelled
to make me eat the beans

i was burning on the inside
like a tortured little dog
she made me feel like i was nothing
so i tried everything to change

i turned into a person
i never wanted to be
i scared myself and others
not at all being me

now Hun i love u to death
and i know u will stay strong
just don't make the same mistake
and be me when i was wrong