I try and try

I fight and cry
i cut and die
i want to leave
but i never try

i hurt inside
my body dies
my mind slowly slips
in to a whirlwind of depression

i tell myself
i want to die
i try and try
but never does it come through

i try cutting
more and more everyday
i try puking
yet it only makes me worse

I've tried the poison
and the gun
I've tried the big butchers knife
and I've tried the pills

i don't understand
why wont i leave
why wont i leave this world behind
why am i still here

i cant stand it
no one really cares
why has our world comes to
when no one really dares