I Still...

It only feels like yesterday
although it has been days
My feelings never changed
Everythings been such a haze

I still
wait for the phone after work
I still
imagine your cute little smirk

I still
set the dinner table for two
I still
leave the door unlocked for you to walk through

I still
hear the engine of your truck
I still
have your trophy hockey puck

I still
refuse to give your stuff back
I still
refuse to find a box and pack

i still
search my bed for you at night
I still
know deep down that it was right

I still
have your number memorized
I still
can picture your perfect blue eyes

I still
I still
have a heart unfufilled

I feel, I feel
my heart can't heal
I feel, I feel
as though its all unreal

I still
hate crying
although I
keep on trying

I still
visit your gravestone
But i still
don't feel completely alone