So Confused!

I feel so empty
I don't know what to do.
I feel so lonely
and sad too.
I don't know why I cry
sometimes I feel I should die.
I don't want to ask for help
because only weak people ask for help
and I am not weak,
or so I think.
My mood always changes instantly
and I feel like I can't control it.
It's like I am not made to be happy
even thought I want to be.
I feel like I am psycho
and no one can help me
or understand me.
I put on an act
that nobody can see
the real me.
On the outside I try to be all happy
and smiley.
Then, on the inside
I am breaking
and can't stop or control myself.
I feel really scared
because I don't know what is happening to me.
I get so terrified at night
or during the day when this happens.
I never know when I will feel like this
or why I do.
I am so confused!!