Say goodbye to goodbyes

Will i ever apprehend the knowledge
that you were never truly mine,
or will i eternally savor the illusion
that you'll come round in time.

you treated me horrifically
got off on seeing me cry,
alleged that you desired me
then withdrawing all our ties.

you left me confused and humiliated
on numerous special occasions,
but now you've gone a bit too far
i heard about your and her liaison.

you had me wrapped round your finger
decieved me for so long,
i believed i was the object of your affection
i couldn't be more wrong.

you left me torn and fragile
the bruises fade in days,
but the torment i feel within me
everlastingly, unwelcome, it stays.

i can't tolerate your behaviour no more
i'm slowly becoming unhinged,
my days will now forever be
a dreary, blood red tinged.

the most recent time you said goodbye
you wound up in her bed,
the memory will constantly haunt me
replaying round my head.

so our day has finally drawn to a near
to conclusively call it the end,
its time to say goodbye to goodbyes,
to fantasy and pretend.