I Refuse

I sniff another powdered line
i taste the bitterness in my throat
it makes me gag and spit
quickly i begin to choke

i drink the taste away
closing my eyes, i take a shot
how many is it this time
who knows, i forgot

i hear your voice in my mind
as i inhale the white lines
i know what you would say to me
but I've put you far behind

smile, i don't know whats going on
just racing in my head
every things just a blur
nothing else i can comprehend

all i know is i loved you
how much you would never know
there are no words i could say
or do anything that would show

drink it away
it isn't true
you never loved me
i refuse to love you