Deja Vu

I'm seeing things again
Hearing things again
Feeling things again
I'm having deja vu
Flashbacks to spring break
This is not good

Seeing things out of the corner of my eye
It looks like my phone is vibrating
Like the red light is blinking
What always happens when it rings
Keep seeing people typing to me
I feel like I'm being overwhelmed
With people trying to get in contract
And yet none of it is happening

Hearing things ever so faintly
Keep thinking my phone is ringing
Or that I can hear it vibrate
Keep hearing people IMing me
That gentle little bell
Imagining people knocking on my door
Ever so quietly
Like they're nervous about something
But the noises aren't real

Feeling things I thought were gone
The slight prick of the safety pin
Dragging lightly across my skin
Not enough to draw blood
Just leaves a faint white line
The feeling sends shivers up my spine
Because I remember spring break
And when that slight prick soon grew
And became a sharp pain soon dripping blood

I'm just feeling depressed
It's nothing I can't handle
I'll just set down the needle
Push away the urges
And stop thinking about spring break
It's not a big deal
I can handle this
But maybe it'll be a little easier
If you tell me it'll all pass
It's just a mood swing
I can make it through