My guardian demon

He’s there each night
He’s there each day
He talks to me
And wants to stay

I’m the only one who can see him
No one else knows he’s there
He’s the only one who sees
My whole soul laid bare

He knows all my secrets
Everything in my head
He knows all my moods
And why I wish I was dead

He talks to me each night
Before I to sleep
He seems to understand
Why my pain runs deep

He hugs me when I’m down
And holds me when I’m sad
He says that he’ll help me
And stop me feeling bad

He says I should be happy
He always tries for me
But I know that he’s lying
And only I can see

He doesn’t have a name
And doesn’t know where he came from
But he’s my guardian angel
And says we’ll always be one

He says he’s there to help me
To protect me from any harm
Yet I know deep down he’s evil
But I can’t resist his charm

I haven’t told anyone about him
This complex, strange, remote man
Cause I don’t want him to go away
Only he knows who I am

He kisses my tears when I’m crying
I feel him embracing my soul
Such a sinful pleasure
But it makes me feel whole.

He soothes my mind when it’s fevered
He stops my heart from breaking
He’s so strong and caring
He can stop my soul from aching

But he can change so quickly
And talks to me in my head
He says that they’re all talking about me
And all the things they’ve said

He makes me feel so sinful
That I let him talk to me
I know I feed his power
I’m dirty, can no one see?!

So I’ll keep my filthy little secret
With him locked away in my mind
But soon the day will come
When I’ll leave reality behind…

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