I Died Trying

The dawn of a new day, that I will never get to see.
A brightly rising sun, over a beautiful green tree.

I had once convinced myself, that time was all it took.
And tried so hard to just believe, the pages in the book.

I tried to tell you that I was sorry, And I tried to buy you a rose.
I tried to open up to you, and tell you what nobody knows.

I see these marks upon my arms, that tears cannot erase.
And then I see the most pale look, of fear upon your face.

I tried to make things better, and get rid of all my blades.
I tried to be a brighter person, and pull up all the shades.

I hear your cries, real late at night, And wonder what I've done.
I close my eyes and turn my head, and realize you have won.

I try to be the best for you, and give you all I can.
I try so hard sometimes it hurts but you don't even understand.

I made some mistakes that I cant go back and fix.I can only keep them from repeating.
I've cried many tears, that I cant go back and dry.But I try to take this beating.

I tried to be strong for you.Not knowing I was growing more weak.
I tried to be so perfect for you.When perfect is not what you seek.

I tried to get up on my own when I fell.I tried to appear unafraid.
I tried to be all I could be.And not what i was statistically made.

You overlooked my effort.And looked past all of my strife.
I finally broke, fell for the last time.My last time took my life.

I tried so hard, to be everything that you wanted.In the end I tried to keep you from crying.
But it turns out you hated all of who I was.And well I Died trying.