Where are you?

I hate when you hurt me
I hate when i cry
I just want to die
So why I'm still here ill never know
I stuck it out through the thick and the thin
I made you believe i was totally there
But to tell you the truth i don't even care
Whether i die or whether i stay, ill still remember everyday...
That i sat alone with nobody there, no one to talk to and no one that cared
When i was sad and when i was scared you weren't even there
You didn't even try to make me feel good
You didn't even try to take my pain and help me have a really good day
For once in my life i wanna be happy
I wanna have fun, i want to laugh and i want to play
I want to have friends to hang out with all day
But i know its not from you , it needs to come from me
But everyday is such a struggle
To go from one to the next..its harder than it looks
Its not as easy as reading a book cuz this is my story its how it begins...i just hope i can make it to the very end....