Missing

I am missing something
I can feel it in my heart
I don't think I can fill it

I am missing love
I am lonely
I am afraid

No one to talk to or lean on
No one talks to me unless they need a shoulder to cry on
I am weak

I am weak
I cant say no
I can't make my own decisions

I feel like I will hurt someone if I make the wrong decision
I mess everything up
I am useless

And now God spoke into my life once again
I have someone to talk to now
I have someone who makes me feel good about myself

I feel stronger, I am stronger
I say no to things I think are wrong

I am still afraid I will hurt someone
I am still afraid I will mess up
I do mess up, and I learn from it

God forgives me
God Loves me
God cares for me

I feel he is the only one that does