A letter to my heart

Dear heart,
have you mended yet?
Im so sorry for getting you caught in this net.

Ill try so hard not to do it again,
I promise I'll try to let you mend.

But if not, Im so sorry for this pain,
Im so sorry for this constant strain.

What was it this time you ask?
I was invisible, I must've been wearing a mask.

I know I couldn't have him, I don't know why I tried, But I do know all I've done is cry.

I've never talked to him but I still shed tears being in lonely forever is my biggest fear.