What Is It That Makes Me Stay?

What is it that makes me stay
In this world You've made so Grey?

You make me so happy, but why am i sad?
Why do I hold on to the past and what we "had"?

I feel so isolated in this world that is my prison
I want the old you back, the one that used to listen

What is it that makes me stay
In this world of your precious ways?

Why can't you be who you used to be
back to the point that it's just you and me

I can't tell you my thought or what's real
When you ask me whats wrong i want to say what i feel

What is it that makes me stay
in your arm on your chest i lay

I feel so uneasy with no way to leave
With pain in every breath i breathe

What is it that makes me stay
In which for you here i have to pray

Excuses on why you didn't call
Maybe i don't need you after all

What is it that makes me stay
in you heart of dried up clay

Hoping for what used to be
Maybe what needs to change is me

What is it that makes me stay
When all i need is on delay

Where I am abused mentally
When I don't understand fully