Contemplating

Life isn't easy
I live everyday in misery

I pick up the knife
Wanting to cut away my life

A friend once said to me
Everything is meant to be

I put the knife down
I take a look around

I wonder if everythings meant to be
Then why is this sh*t happening to me

I think, is there anything worth living for
No one seems to care for me anymore

I still live in doubt
But I finally realized I don't want the cowards way out

I want to live, just to see
What exactly is meant to be.