Forever and For always

I lost him today
Forever and for always
I hate myself for it
Probably always will
But I can't fix it...
I guess I need to realize that
For all to be forgive
To be able to stand alone again
I haven't for so long
Depended on friends and him
Friends are still here
Forever more,
I guess he's one of them now
Just my support...
Not to be my love...
Just my friend
Because I lost him today
Forever and for always