Why Not Me?

Am I to be found by night
Cold and lonely
Is Valentine's Day
To find me without eyes to look lovingly my way

Am I to watch everyone marry?
Am I to walk alone in the Fall
Am I to watch my tears fall and dry
As everyone finds love

Am I to relive my memories
Night after night
Wondering why
You couldn’t love me?

Am I to cling on to your picture
Everyday of my life
Wondering what went wrong
What didn’t I do right

Knowing how you can hurt
Knowing how you can be
So controlling
Remembering everything
You have done to me

You lied and cheated
You hit and beated
You cried and begged
For to believe
That you'll never do it again

You showed the way to heaven
And back to the moon
You lit the stars
And made be swoon

You carried me home
When I was lost and alone
You showed me a kind of love
That was never to be my own

Now I wonder how it is I'm here
Lying awake in bed
With my own tears
Knowing I won't get rest

Knowing you're with someone else
Holding them tight
Making sure
Their world all right...