I'm sorry

I'm sorry I'm not happy
But I feel like sh**
It might be all the pressure
But I don't know if that's it

I'm sorry if you don't like me
Cause I'm acting like a freak
I'm running from my problems
It's like a game of hide and seek

I'm sorry that when I'm the seeker
I always find my knife
It's my own special way
Of showing my anger at life

I'm sorry for faking it
And lying about how I feel
Because you always know
How I'm feeling for real

I'm sorry for not caring
I can't help it that I don't
It's cause nothing has any meaning
It's not because I won't

I'm really really sorry
You deserve better in a friend
I can't help it I'm suicidal
I wish this phase would end