My Lover and Friend

To My Lover...

Right now I'm going through hell,
Bouncing around like a giant rubber ball,
Don't take me wrong please,
I just need you to support me,
I don't want you to understand,
I just want you to be my man,
To be able to turn to you anytime,
To know whatever I'm going through you'll always be mine,
I don't want to tell you everything going through my mind,
I just need your hand to find mine,
Really, I can live without you always wanting me,
But sometimes I need you to... for free,
I can't run to anyone around,
I just have to sit and wait to be found,
Not planning on spilling my soul to my boo,
All I need is you to hold me and for me to be able to hold you,

To My Friend...

Right now I'm struggling in life,
Pulling myself away from the knife,
Don't listen to some of the stuff I say,
I just need to get it out of the way,
Words I say come across as harsh,
But there's no harshness in my heart of hearts,
Truthfully I don't mean any offense,
At the moment though I don't feel content,
Nothing feels right,
I just really need somebody I trust to hold me tight,
Don't listen to me,
Don't try to follow what you can't see,
Don't pretend that what I'm speaking is important,
Just know that what I need to say I can't,
Don't push and tell me I can tell you,
I know I can I just don't want to.

*I love you I really do but sometimes what I want to say doesn't come out and what I don't mean does...*