Dead...On The Inside

I try to speak I try to scream
Nightmares are all I dream
I try to whisper I try to tell
I didn't get back up once I fell

I'm covering it up with unreal feelings
I feel like my world is caving in even the ceilings
I'm trying hard to keep my fake smile on
I am starting to wonder what it would be like if I was gone

Crying and sobbing every single night
Life is a battle and I'm losing the fight
Depression and tears are controlling me now
My life just got worst and I don't remember how

Cutting my skin to get rid of some pain
In my life all it does is rain
I can't even be happy when I need to be
Maybe being happy just isn't for me

I go to sleep early to run away from this life
This pain feels like someone stabbing me with a knife
Take me out of misery and end it quick
My life is horrible and it is making me sick

I'm broken I'm out there is no use to keep going
I'm beat I'm useless my pain is glowing
To make my life better I promise I tried
But its hopeless cause I'm dead on the inside

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