Confused (written @ 2AM )

OK, I'm so confused
my feelings are a mess
I don't understand this
should I wait or take a guess?
I know that I'm in love
but theres problems with that too
I don't know if i can trust him
or if this love is true
I barely get to see him
he lives so far away
the distance is spreading out
and our love will have to pay

At night i dream of him
right there, holding me tight
but all day i have to smile
pretending I'm alright
then i see couples together
and it just hurts so bad
he and i are never close
I'm all alone and very sad

my heart believes in everything
from soul mates to love forever
but maybe i believe too much
perhaps i should think never
I want more than i have
but i have more than i should want
all i want is that someone special
and true love that i can flaunt

The perfect guy may never come
am i stupid to stay and wait?
I need to find these answers
before it becomes too late

kisses in the moonlight
dancing in the rain
God, thats all i want
why do they cause such pain?

i have a guy that cares
hes there through tears and laughter
but will that be enough for me...
when all i want is happily ever after?

*OK guys this definitely isn't one of my best poems but I wrote it at around 2 in the morning and this was the best I could do to describe how i felt then. thanks much for any comments and votes :-) *