So hard to deny
The pain that sill sits inside
Though I tell others I'm better
I still consider suicide
Its only an option now
Not simply my fate
My desire for it doesn't burn as bad now
But I'm still being crushed by the hate
I know its not all as bad as it seems
But I can't help the denial I face
One minute I'm all here and ready to take life
The next I'm hopelessly lost in space
I don't know what my problem is
Why I can't just let this pain go!
Its so hard to go back to the life I used to live
When I still have so much I don't show
I still feel worthless
And I'll never be anything more
So why can't I accept this and move on
I just want to be like before
The cure for me doesn't exist
So why should I pretend it does?
When I feel I can no longer go on
When a reason to live never follows my because
