Nothing

I know you despise me,
so why can't you say what
I am to you.
Maybe you've forgot
I've been hurt, used, and
played with before.
I know how it goes.
I know all the signs,
of wanting to leave someone behind,
but still wanting the pleasure
you get from them.
And I can see
I'm just your toy
used for a while
then thrown away.
I can see
your playin me
but this time its different
I've never been in love this way
before.
and it hurts so badly
to see this happening again
and i dont want it to be true.
so I'll keep pretending
that I havent a clue.
But deep down inside
I know what I have become to you.
....Nothing....

Hayley ©