Crimson tears!!!

Crimson tears is what i cry
for i am a coward
and will not let a tear fro my eye
so i go to my knife
my one and only friend
the one thats there for life
i know i can count on this
you wont let me down
for self harm is what you'll miss
red is what i see
it makes a smile
appear on me
i feel great and relaxed
and nothing less
all to the max
my anger and hurt is gone
and no more yelling
coming from my mom
so now i can lay down
and think no more
and blood stained brown
and awake for tomorrow
just to go through
more pain nd sorrow...

please vote and comment..
it will mean lot I'm just beginning to write poems nd would like to know what you think...I'm feeling real bad right now thanks!!!!!