I Know, But Don't Wanna

I know what it’s like
To go home and cry
And just to hide it
You smile and lie

I know what it’s like
To hide alone in the dark
Plotting to leave the world
And tearing yourself apart

I know what it’s like
To have your heart shatter
Then picking up the pieces
You never climb love’s ladder

I know what it’s like
To cut everyday
To free all that pain
And make the blade take it away

I know what it’s like
To be raped as a child
Never getting any justice
Never having a true smile

I know what it’s like
To be completely alone
Not a friend in the world
You aimlessly roam

I know what it’s like
To have a mom beat you
You cling to hope that she’ll change
But she still turns you black and blue

I know what it’s like
To be entirely lost
To feel un-belonging
A mistake at life’s cost

I know what it’s like
I’ve been there before
I’ve been through it all
But I don’t want to anymore

I want to stop all of this
I just want to end it
Forget all of my life
I’m done just f--- it