I a mind soul and breath of depression

As the days go bye and my innocence remains i continue on this roller coaster of hell up and down no stopping it no way out....
i need help and help fast before i kill myself and hurt everyone around me...
yet no one will ever see the pain in cause i don't show who i am and who i want to be....
no one knows me anymore and i don't know them...
they don't see that I'm a child of god too...
but soon i will be a prisoner of sin and the devil and i never want to be that..
my blood runs dry and my tears run cold and no one will be able to help me..
i keep myself bottled up inside.......
.no one can save me now no one will ever try to save me they don't care...
I'm to deep into a darkened roller coaster depression up and down
...i get a little bit better and I'm go further down...
i don't know when rock bottom is.......
but I'm dark and proud of it...my clothes hair mind and soul are black ....
doesn't mean I'm goth I'm just depressed and proud of it