A Letter To YOU mom...

So I sit here and I'm looking at all the pictures in your room...
Asking and telling myself that I don't have a clue.
Everyday that I wake up and see that she is here and that you act like I had just disappeared.
But please believe me I know that its not your fault.. I just wasn't good enough to be the best daughter...
Even though I made such laughter..
I see how I am gonna come last in every situation.. and every time that I talk to you I can't seem to tell you a reason..
So never mind the pain that you must be feeling if you are reading..
Its not because of you that I am gone...
Its because I knew that I didn't want you to think that happiness ever meant having to give up on what matters the most...
dear mother you have always been there for me...
But I realized that I cannot be here living where three people do not like me...
You see for I wanted more out of life but I noticed that I never could have what I wanted..
With her living her and my selfishness...
It would cause you too much stress...
So not that I am gone.. then you don't have to hear another sad song...
You can enjoy life as it comes without me here bugging and pushing you along...
Inside I think that we both knew that this was going to come but time has ran out and has said what was done...
So here is this letter to you that I am sorry for all the things I may have done and the things that I never did for as long as I was here..
Just remember all the good times that we had this year....thanks for always being my number one mom...