Something i have never shared

Something
i have never shared
because i never
thought they cared

but now i see
i must share
b/c I'm sure
there is someone to care

yes he hits
and yes i cry
i wish on nights
just to die

i never wished
for him to hit
but i guess
i just don't fit

so every night
he tells me so
all this sh.it
i don't want to know

tells me hates me
tells me to die
so i shrivel up
and simply cry

in the morning
after one of our sessions
i wake up
in a deeper depression

so must u hit
i promise i didn't do
whatever it was
so just throw that shoe

at me and act
as if i am just a piece of sh.it
leave me alone
one day u will regret it

the day u die
i wont care
and the secret
i will share

they might not
believe
but this burden
it just must leave

so hit if u must
and make me cry
but one day
i will die

and u wont cry
and that is OK
but this
is something i must say

in the morning
after one of our sessions
i wake up
in a deeper depression

and one day
u will regret
all the pain
and the day we met

i hate u
and this u know
so please just
leave and go

so my secret is
that u hit
and tell me
that i just don't fit

u tell me
as u throw my head to a wall
that u want
me to just fall

tell me to die
as u throw me down the steps
and to many
secrets i have keep

i lie
people ask i say
walked in to a door
tomorrow will be a better day

so no more
please don't hit
this is just
another secret