What happened?

Why can't i be happy?
Why do i linger in the past?
Why do i still dream of you?
Why do i wish for things to last?

Why am i so afraid,
Of being all alone?
Why can't i just let things go?
Why can't i just be strong?

Why do i let you hurt me,
When i know that's all you want?
Why do i not blame you?
Why do i say it's not your fault?

Why did i get so close,
When i know you're so far away?
Why do i feel so damn bad?
I'll never see you anyway.

Why do i even care what you say?
Why do i keep holding on so tight?
Why not just give up and leave you alone?
There's no use in me trying to fight.

Why do you still tease me,
With a word every now and then?
Is that just a F^CK!NG check up,
On how much i care and where I've been?

Why do you ignore me?
What have i ever done to you?
Why did you just up and leave?
I loved you, you know it's true.

Why did you just forget about me?
Did i mean anything at all?
How can you live, each day of your life,
Knowing, you're the reason i fall?

I tried my best to let you go,
But i just can't seem to find the strength,
I had built my life, around you and i,
But now to you, I don't mean a thing.

I guess I'm just another girl,
Who wouldn't let you do what you wanted to do,
I'm sorry for not wanting you the way you wanted me,
But did you have to ruin our friendship too?

Why did you just leave me,
When i was happy with you here?
Didn't you know i needed you,
To prevent all of these tears?

How could you just walk away,
Turning without a second glance?
Did i do something wrong? Is it able to fix?
Can i please have another chance?

I'd give my life, my entire world,
Just to have you back for 1 day,
Please just let me try my best,
I won't make it alone anyway.

There's nothing for me to lose,
You're all i ever had,
You're all i ever needed,
Please just don't be mad.

I'm nothing without you,
Why can't you understand?
Can't you see, i need you here,
To hold tightly to my hand?

Can't you see i love you,
From the depth of my heart and soul?
I'd be there for you till the end,
Without you the world is so cold.

If you're not coming back to me,
Please tell me the truth,
What was it that happened?
Did i cause the end of me and you?

*~Not the best poem ever lol. But it was old feelings so yeah. Please rate and comment~*