I am sorry

Words once said so easily
Are now trapped deep inside
I don't want to face this
I just want to run and hide
Feelings felt so freely
Have been locked away with a key
What am I going to do now
You'll barely even talk to me
I want to say I'm sorry
But I know it won't excuse
And if I ask for your forgiveness
I know that you'll refuse
I know that you are angry
And I know you are mad
But without you as my friend
I can't stop feeling sad
I want you to know I love you
And I'm sorry for what I did
I was so stupid
I acted like a little kid
I don't know what to do now
I know that you are hurt
I know that you hate me
And that I treated you like dirt
But I never meant to do it
I never meant to make you mad
I never meant to piss you off
I never meant to make you sad
I wish I could go back
And do things right
Then maybe we wouldn't be in this mess
And maybe we wouldn't have to fight