Bradley pt.2

The end of it all...

as i sit here at the soccer field
i pay no attention to the game
i think of a face so familiar
i try to forget that name

both my sisters wonder
why i cry myself to sleep at night
they know it has to do with him
they know somethings not right

i had a million nightmares last night
they kept running through my head
i dreamed of life without him
i dreamed that i was dead

this can't be love for I'm too young
at least that's what they say
i know that I'm falling for him
it gets worse everyday

Bryan says he's getting timid
my mother agrees
he hardly talks to them
& he talks less to me

as tears start to form
i wished we'd never met
I'm dying without him
there's so much i regret

I've been crying for a week now
I'd really like to stop
i can't remember what happy feels like
my heart's about to pop

i shouldn't have written that poem
I could've left my feelings unexposed
i miss him more every second
i can smell him in my clothes

what have i done?
how could i let him push me away?
he doesn't know what I'm going through
I can't explain it anyway

we weren't even going out
but that's not how i act
we would have been so cute together
i so badly want him back

what if I am forgotten
we'll never be more than friends
I knew this was how it was going to be
before it started, it ends

how could this happen
things were going great
maybe if i apologize (for going to fast)
n/m I probably should just wait

maybe this is my destiny
even though i don't believe in fate
I'm not giving this a second chance
for us it is too late...