My Demon's Back

I can still see the scars that have faded
And I still feel the pain
I remember when life was better
A time I was, at least, part sane

I don't know how I got here
I just know what happened along the way
How come it hurts so bad to live?
It could be better if the tears would go away

I know where every cut was
I'm the only one that knows why my throat bleeds
All the things I do, it's an attempt
Just a way of begging God please

I'm jittery like this only now
When a demon creeps
I'm only wired like this when I'm sober
I guess Depression never sleeps

I've been dead for so long
Teach me how to live
No prayer could help me now
To me, God has nothing left to give

My wings have been damaged for too long
Reteach me how to fly
I don't remember how to get up
Except to get high

Take this disease from my mind
Free my life from this suicidal hold
Give me back real feelings
I'm sick of being so cold!

I'm tired of all the f-cking tears!
Please! Hear my heart's scream!
I can't live without happiness
And it's only a few more days till it kills me, it seems...