New Pain New Mark

The scars up my arm stand for a new dilemma in my life
All the pain has me start a new line with the knife

The first one is for all the people who broke my trust
It doesn't mean anything to anyone anymore it isn't a must
No one to talk to no where to go
Insecure so the truth I don't show

The second one is for all the guys who broke my heart
Lies, cries, fights, love where do I start
It took me forever to love you but only seconds to destroy
I don't know why it gets to me so bad your only a boy

The third one is for not being pretty enough
Not feeling good about myself so I never look up
I'm ugly a disgrace and not where I want to be
I only wanna be happy with being me

The forth one is for my pitiful dad
Why doesn't he want to see me I'm not bad
I try so hard to impress him and make him proud
But maybe all I have been doing is letting him down

The Fifth one is for loosing the good I could of had
I should of been happy but I let it slip away aren't you glad?
I keep thinking where did I go wrong
Why do I have to be so unhappy for so long

The sixth one is for disappointing my mother
She would feel even worst if she knew I was a cutter
She tries so hard to give me everything but I let her down
So I hurt myself for making her constantly frown

The seventh one is for regretting my past
Always having my fake smile on its like a permanent mask
I try to move on but for some reason its in possible
This pain is hurting make it go away is it stoppable

The eight one is for losing respect in myself
I set my standards low I'm not good enough thats what I felt
I see myself differently then I have before
I hate myself everyday more and more

The ninth one is for not giving it my all
I don't pick myself up after I fall
I'm not as strong as I should be
If you look at me I'm not as tough as you see

The tenth one if for the never ending pain
For always crying and always seeing the rain
It doesn't get any better the longer I go
So this is the reason I mark my wrist if you didn't know

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