I Wish

I'm so stupid for getting in too deep,
So dumb for letting you get to me.
I wish i could control my heart,
I wish we were never so far apart.
I wish I didn't slip, and tell you how I felt,
I wish I could just kill myself.
But I know I can't, I've tried before,
I'll just end up regretting what I do even more.
I wish I didn't love you, I wish I didn't care,
I wish I didn't waste my time, wishing you were there.
I wish I didn't believe you,
When you say you love me too.
I wish that something would happen, to change my mind.
I wish that I could go back in time.
I wish that I could somehow un-do,
The worst day of my life, the day I met you.
I wish I didn't get the numbers mixed up,
I wish that you would at least give a f^ck.
I wish you understood, how I feel,
I wish I didn't think this was such a big deal.
I wish you would care for me, The way I care for you,
I wish that I could let you go, I wish I knew what to do.
I wish you wouldn't use me, you're just something I can't resist,
I wish this was just a fling, and didn't have this stupid twist.
I wish that I could just bleed out, the pain that you've caused me.
I wish you knew how much I love you. Tell me, is it that hard to see?

*~lol just like a lot of my poems lately, i don't think it's finished. Sorry lol but if it's not I'll submit the rest when it is:D~*