Who knew

My conscious-who would have ever thought that my life would turn out like this?everything is spinning
it hurts so bad
what do i do
i drew a picture in my wrist
i used a razor....oh no they are coming what do i do?
should i cry for help? is it too late? do i keep drawing?
the pain oh no its unbearable......that rope looks so nice maybe i should just........

my mom- oh no she hung herself, but she was so perfect she had everything i don't understand where did i go i wrong who would ever thought she would do that?