We once were best of friends
All we could do was hang out with one another.
We had the best of laughs and times together.
Who would have known that it could be more?
I never knew that you wanted to be more
All I saw was us as friends.
Someone who I knew would always be there,
A friend I knew I could confide anything in.
Then one day it all changed.
I mean it wasn't overnight or anything
It was more of a gradual thing.
Then you told me you loved me.
What was I to say?
All I could say was I love you too!
This didn't last long.
I decided to say lets just be friends.
This was our first time but not the last.
We didn't talk for months.
What was I 2 do?
I needed you more than ever.
Then track season came around.
Our friendship began to re-new.
You invited me to your b-day
I couldn't have been more happy.
We were friends again.
Hanging out all the time,
Me doing everything with your family
I was happy to be friends.
Then before we knew it
We let our emotions and feelings control us.
I was scared to hurt you again,
But I thought it could really work.
My first love had been gone for awhile.
I thought I was ready to love again.
I was ready until he walked back in.
After that my emotions were mixed.
What was I 2 do?
Was I to stay with you who I had come to love
Or was I to give him a second chance?
I wasn't sure so I broke it off till I did.
I chose him over you,
This caused you more pain than imagined.
Even though I chose him all I could do
Was think of you and miss you.
As you know I made the wrong choice.
He left me as he did before with a broken heart.
You told me not to go back,
But I didn't listen. Not to anyone.
Now I feel as though I've lost you.
Not just as a boyfriend,
But as my best friend.
Something I never wanted.
All I wanted is for you to be a part of my life.
Nothing more than a friend,
And nothing less than a friend.
I promise I can keep my feelings put away,
Keep them away so I don't cause harm.
Because every time I let them out
All I seem to do is cause you pain and harm.
This wasn't meant to happen,
It just did.
Now I know I have to live with it.
Live with my consequences.
I just pray my choices,
Pray they haven't cost us our friendship.
You know I'd rather be your friend
Then to never talk to you again.
I know you will always love me
I just hope you can put your feelings aside.
Like I have done for the better.
I've only done this b/c all i seem to do when I let my feelings out is cause pain.
So please know I'm not doing this to hurt you,
I'm doing this so I don't.
The pain I cause needs to go
And this is the only way I know to make it cease.
So I pray you accept this
And that we can overcome this,
And become the friends,
The friends we once were.
