I dont know how to comitt suicide

Is this the right time?
I'm all alone
no one is hear
at home
a tear hiding behind my black bruised eyes
no one can hear my soft delicate cries
I'm hiding behind all my lies
in the corner covered in flies
mommy and daddy are gone now they said they will come home
but yet it has been ten days now and I'm still all alone
i see the bullet and i see the gun
but day after day i have tried and i don't know how to commit suicide