I sit around and wonder..

I sit around and wonder
Why I feel this pain.
How can someone suffer this much
Each and every day?

I sit around and wonder
If this pain is real.
Because I feel it all the time.
I want to be set free.

Last night I did something I shouldn't have done.
I felt so bad afterwords.
This battle almost won.

I sit around and wonder
If one day it will be gone.
It use to be but for some reason it came back to me.

No one will know how bad it hurt to hear my best friend cry.
All because I did something and I could have died.

I want all my friends to know how much I love them and how sorry I am.

I wish I could take it back.
And that I didn't really do it.
Then my friends wouldn't have been crying because of this stupid s***.

I sit around and wonder what is wrong with me.
But I can not figure it out.
And if I don't soon I will start scream and shout.

Finally it is dieing down.
And I am fighting back.
Because I never want to hurt or scare my friends again.
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This is all true last night i did something and i feel so bad for what i did. I want all my friends to know how sorry I am and I want them to know I will always love them...please comment and vote. thank you so much everyone it means more than any of you will ever know.