I Love You

Sometimes wish I could have gone.
Sometimes wish I could have left.
But then I found you,
And I got distracted

I'm so sorry hun,
But I have to say.
That I have gone back,
Back to my old way.

Every night I cry,
Cry myself to sleep.
I've gone back to cut,
I need to feel something, instead of weep.

So many feelings,
So many memories have returned.
I feel I'm dreaming when I'm awake.
Last night by the fire I burned.

I didn't realize it,
I didn't even notice.
I'm getting so scared,
Again, I'm that wilted lotus.

I'm so sorry hun,
I still luv you.
But I understand if you want to leave.
I understand if this isn't something you wish to pursue.

You will stay in my mind,
I won't forget you.
I love you.