God's Mistake

I am really tired of this
looking at the ground thinking about the one i miss
and i try to stay strong
yet the feeling is still pain
i had seen you die
i had seen the look in your eye
still thinking of it makes me cry
and all i want is to forget
or wish that we should of never met
at least maybe you would of been alive now.
i keep telling myself i should of went not you ...How?
How is this possible
am i in a nightmare
maybe i am in a coma waiting to wake up somewhere
i wish i could go back
and stop you from your death
we could of been together
that would of been the best
this is why i yell at god
because he took you away from me
is that his punishment on me
to take the life of the one i need
then your nothing to me god
your false
your fake
you should of choose my life to take
instead of making a mistake.