Death by all

I deserve not to live
I only cause pain
In everything I do
In everything I am

I’m a waste of a being
A waste of time
This is a torturous life to live
And it’s pointless all the same

What’s the point in tears
What’s the point in depression
Why not take a knife
And kill your self this second

Why? I don't know
I wish I could
But something holds me back
And I wish that it wouldn't

I want to leave
And go to where I belong
In the depths of hell
Alone with out my song

I deserve eternity of blackness
And a life of living nothing
If pain and torture is here
Then send to where it’s my only truth

I wish to have the pain
But not the of love
Why’d I have to be this way
I'm like a lonely white dove

I don’t know why I do this
I love everyone
And every thing
Until I’m proven wrong

Why do I have to give a second chance
Or a third fourth fifth or sixth
Why’d I have to be this way
It results in everything missed

Send me now to torture
Torture of my truth
I don't want the pain of love
I just want to die with out you

I caused every one so much pain
Please let end it now
Take my life
And send me to the depths of hell