As I slide the blade across my wrist I feel the blood tickle down and I watch the blood form a beautiful puddle on the ugly tiled floor. As the puddle gets larger, I feel all that was once bad disappear. I feel everything get released. I watch the blood until I close my eyes and see nothing but that bright white light. I want to go go towards it, but I can't. I can't seem to find my way. I'm forever lost. I can only find the darkness in the light. I want to go to the light, but everytime I get close to it, it seems to get even farther away from me. I want all the release I can get. This light in which I find comfort only seems to be be temporary. I want want permanent happiness. I want it to last for more than five minutes. I need it to last for more than five minutes. These voices in my head drive me insane. The only thing that chases them away is the happiness....the happiness I will never have...
