This Pain i feel inside

This pain i feel inside
it tearing me up
i cant help but hide
the fear i hold
i don't know what to think
my heart is shutting down
no more letting useless
people get in
I'm only going to end up hurt
like i am today
but no more
am i crying
for someone who's fake
i take these empty tears
the emotion i don't have
i throw it all away
cause i don't know
what to think
i don't know who i am
i don't know anymore
all i feel now
is the last time
my heart has to break
no more painful friends
or relationships from hell
i don't know what to think
so I'm sending out this list
i cant stand who they are
or even who i am
when will i just leave
this world thats crashing in
I'm not going to give
into someone that I'm not
this is who i am
for right now i said
theres no more tears to fall
I'll just keep to myself
the the day that i die
god will take me home
but for now i just have to cry