I hurt

I know it makes you sad to see what I go through
I just remember what I have got and I know I will make it through
Nothing you can say or do will make it change
What you want to do you can't
So I'm stuck with all this pain
I cry at night ,wishing for some change
I wonder what will happen next
so I have to watch my step ..
she is like a ticking time bomb
You never know when she will blow
It scares me alot ....
More than you could know ...
I hurt deep inside,
I will not let her win ..
You encourage me each day
saying someday she has to give in
It's like a war with her ,she just wants to win
she is not very nice,she does some pretty evil stuff
All she does is cut me down ..I think I have had enough
you can't handle me crying all the time
I can't handle the pain .and knowing you feel it too
I'm sick of saying "My mother did this to me today .."
I shouldn't have to ...
Your the only source of happiness,I' so glad I have you .
Tired of feeling yelled ,I'm running out of tears
I'm starting to give up
My smiles are disapearing ,in my eyes you see
Inside I'm falling apart ,on the outside I stand still
my thoughts of what comes next for me start to become more clear
some of `em are good ..I really believe
I want to share my deepest thoughts ,what I worry about each day
How I'm so happy Adam it's you I have got
my mother doesn't know me .although I wish she did
Sometimes I feel like yelling at her or telling her to screw off
Sick of giving reasons ,sick of sharing my thoughts
Tired of holding on to nothing ...You are all I have got