Suicide Time(kinda like a song)

They could never understand
How much pain I was actually in
I was pretending to smile
To make them happy for a little while
But it soon became to much to bear
I hated knowing you weren't there
My heart has been broken for too long
So here I am, writing my last song
All you did
Was pretend
I was completely real
To broken now to fully heal
So I'll make this short and sweet
I won't cause you to much grief
I really loved you
My words were true
I still need you
Just leave the hell you put me through
I still can't understand why
It can't go back to you and I
But thats not why I'm writing this
I just wanted you to know, I'm happy you were my last kiss
I really don't regret
I understand I was your secret
But this pain just got to me
One day I know you'll see
Just keep this in mind
This is my suicide time