No Longer

The paint on my bedroom walls,
Is chipping and falling apart.
I sit on the floor in the dark.
Slowly and painfully, he's broken my heart.

I haven't felt like coming out for a while.
My mom yells, "it's time for dinner"
But it goes in one ear and out the other.
I have not eaten, I'm progressively getting thinner.

My family is too busy to even notice,
My friends have called, but I haven't called back.
It wasn't so long ago I talked to him.
My heart has fallen under attack.

I said I didn't need him, that I didn't care.
When we broke up, I didn't even cry.
Then they found his body that dark, cold night.
I didn't even get a chance to say goodbye.

I regret all the bad words, everything I said.
And I can't do anything but write this stupid rhyme.
I loved him so much, how could I have been so blind?
I don't even get a second chance this time.

And how can I think of myself at a time like this?
He's the one who isn't even here at all.
And as I continue to think of him,
The tears will not stop, they continue to fall.

I feel so weak, I know I won't be here long.
I move to the mirror, I'm paler than snow.
I wonder if he jumped because of me?
After tonight, I'll find out what I want to know.

*This didn't really happen, I was just going through a poetic moment and came up with this.