In the midst of a suicidal state I try try try to remember what I have to look forward too, all the plans I've made, the people I love, the future I might very well happily exist in. look at where we are compared to where we've been...Its been storming for 3 days straight and I am quite enjoying it but it seems I get sadder as the days go on knowing that this too shall end. everyday is a fight against my mind, the nights that I barely survive, the fights with all the people trying to pull me back in touch. I don't know what I'm destined for but right now in this crash landing I can only focus on the present to stay one step ahead of death...
