Wishing It Was Alright

I'm alone in my room,
Squeezing my pillow tight.
Tears rolling down my cheeks,
Wishing everything was alright.
My mind's spinning,
Everything is a blur.
How can I have so many doubts,
When I used to be so sure?
Looking back into the months,
Trying to figure out what went wrong.
Why do I feel so weak,
When I used to be so strong?
Now I'm blaring music in my ears,
Still wishing everything was alright.
Tears flowing from my eyes,
'Cause I know we are in a fight.
My heart yearns for the past,
Wishing for the way it used to be.
The same question plays in my mind,
What happened to you and me?
I know I am a brat,
Seems like I yell at you everyday.
But truth is,
I love you in every way.
I love you,
With all my heart.
And the last thing I want,
Is for us to be apart.
I'm going to try and save this,
'Cause I still want to be your wife.
Please help me in saving this,
'Cause I want to be with you for life.
If you don't want to try anymore,
Just let me know.
If you don't love me anymore,
Just let me go.
Sitting in my room,
Squeezing my pillow tight.
Wanting this fight to be over,
And everything to be alright.

*in original poem brat is really the harsher word*