I Still

I still wonder what happened,
I still whisper your name sometimes at night.
I still think about you, every now and then,
I still cry when your picture's in my sight.

I still wonder,
If you're ever coming home.
I still cry over what happened,
When I'm all alone.

I still turn around at school,
And expect to see your face.
I still look for you beside me,
But end up seeing an empty space.

Sometimes i find myself dialing your old number,
Just to hear the telephone ring.
I still expect you to answer,
But you never do, i never hear a thing.

I still expect to hear you laughing,
When i trip and fall at school.
I say my ideas out loud, and wait for the response,
But you're never there to say something cruel.

I still remember, every now and then,
How close we used to be.
I still wonder what would happen if you came back,
And if you ever think of me.

I still miss you like i always have,
I still imagine that you're there.
I still wish that we could talk sometime,
But it seems that neither one of us care.

I still think of all our memories,
And tears fill up my eyes.
When i think of what you really thought of me,
Why'd you keep so many lies?

I'm still happy that i met you,
I have no regrets, though it hurts so bad.
I hope that I'll get over it,
But if i don't, I'll still be glad.

I still love you with all my heart,
And think of you all the time.
I still want to tell you,
Everything that's on my mind.

I'm sorry i didn't show my love,
I've never been good at expressing myself.
I'm sorry i was never there for you,
When you needed so much help.

I hope that you'll forgive me,
Though i know it will never be the same.
Cuz I'm going crazy without you,
I need to hear you yell my name.

Scream at me, let it all out,
Whatever it takes to get back what we lost.
Because i still miss you so damn much,
I'll do anything, no matter what the cost.

*~Dunno if it's done but i know it sucks lol. Sorry~*