My Choice

I don't need your F^cking sympathy,
I don't need anyone to be there for me.

They're my problems,
I'll deal with them myself.
So just leave me alone,
I don't need any of your help.

I keep it inside,
Cos i don't want you to see.
The person that I'm hiding,
The weaker side of me.

Don't tell me that you care about me,
Cos it's all a bunch of lies.
Don't tell me you'll lend a shoulder,
Every time tears flood my eyes.

Don't tell me that you'll be there,
Cos i know that it's not true.
No one ever stays for long,
And eventually, you'll leave too.

Don't tell me that you love me,
Cos i know you really don't.
Don't try to make me trust you,
Cos you'll soon realize, i won't.

You're just wasting your time on me,
You'll never understand.
Just leave me alone right now,
I don't need a helping hand.

I'm not gonna spit out all my problems,
I won't explain to you, my pain.
I'll just tell you that I'm fine,
Cos I'll just get left again.

I won't tell you that I'm crying,
I won't say i wish to die.
Don't say I'm pushing you away,
Because I'm hiding what's inside.

Don't tell me that I'll be ok,
If i let my feelings show.
I'm never gonna let them out,
Cos i don't want you to know.

Every time i found someone like you,
They left and caused me to hurt.
I've given up on depending on people,
Cos they always leave me in the dirt.

Behind my hazel eyes,
Lies the pain you'll never see.
My weaker side, beyond my sweet disguise,
And the memories that created me.

So with a smile on my face,
And a hole in my heart.
I'll lock away my feelings,
And stay shaded in the dark.

With tears in my eyes,
And pain in my voice,
I'll deny my every sorrow,
Because I've made a choice...