My Demon

Torturing me on the inside
Hurting myself on the out
My inner demon is breaking me down
And my soul will never be found.

I want to be saved so badly
I want to feel once more
My heart and soul is tied and bound
I can't face my demon down.

I've tried to kill the pain
Wither everything I could do
But my demon held me back
And I realized I wouldn't make it through.

My demon made it hard
Just to be myself
I had to act how he wanted me to
And he would let me talk to you.

I wanted to act so real
And not have to put on the fake smile
Because you were liking the fake me
And I got use to it after awhile.

I tried and tried to figure out a way
To get my demon out of me
And then I realized the only way he would go
Was to see me bleed.

He wanted to see my make my pain
To see the razor cut my arm
Leaving scars behind
Causing me self-harm.

My demon thought I wouldn't find the courage
To make the final cut
He kept killing me slowly
There was nothing I could do.

I had to get my heart and soul
To be happy and finally free
And I couldn't keep my love
Not love me for the real me.

That night I found the courage
Of thinking of all the things my demon did to me
I cut the deepest I ever have
And I could feel my soul become free.

My demon lost his purpose
For he had nothing left to break
For my soul finally had enough
It took all it could take.